Memories , ♥

New Spot (:

2010-05-17T23:42:00.002+08:00

http://janise-yx.blogspot.com

Do re-link me (:

I will slowly edit my new blog.

Need sometime.

http://janise-yx.deviantart.com/

Do visit my deviantart too! (:

need some comments (:

loves! (:

FACEBOOK ACCOUNT GOT HACKED

2010-05-03T10:49:00.002+08:00

Fuck facebook, Fuck the hacker!

My Facebook account got hacked last night at 3am in the morning.

My Facebook account is deleted by the hacker.

If there is somebody add you with my Name , Email and Picture.

PLEASE DO NOT ADD THEM.

IT'S NOT ME.

IT'S NOT YUN XIN OR JANISE.

THANK YOU.

IF I HAVE A NEW ACCOUNT ALREADY, I WILL LET YOU GUYS KNOW.

(:

2010-04-24T00:40:00.001+08:00

Love will make you growth. Don't have to go too far. Because I have a loving family and a loving friends. Don't have to go too far. But at the end I know I still love her. Muaxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

when it ends.

2010-04-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

3 years, 5 months, 4 weeks & 2 days

Our relationship ends now.

We're now friends.

There is nothing we can do,

life goes on as usual,

just hope for happiness stops by.

We'll be alright.

One day, you'll understand.

2010-04-20T18:17:00.003+08:00

为什么分手都会那么痛苦，不是分手了比以前更快乐吗？

何必要到这地步呢？

I'm seeking for happiness, not sadness.

What I receive now are all old memories that i had before.

Have you ever heard before,

When a person truly love the partner,

He/she would find happiness for their partner,

So, to me, letting go is the best way to move on and find their happiness.

We don't hold them, we don't make each other feel bad.

Feelings are not easy to find, when it's gone, it's gone.

Accept the truth and life goes on.

Don't think that no one loves you in this world.

They love you silently,

They care for you whenever you're upset,

Just that you don't realize because you're not giving yourself a chance to accept the facts.

Trust me, there are other girls better than me.

I just want things to goes on happily.

I totally understand how you feel,

It hurts, so do I.

When the time you said break up,

I gone through the same thing, i totally can understand how you feel,

But this doesn't mean i have to be with you when there is no more feeling.

I do hope you understand too.

Be happy. You need happiness to brighten up your future.

i appreciate it (:

2010-04-19T19:17:00.008+08:00

Eltjse, luckily we have whatsapp,

love you El. (:

Thanks for cheering me up , Nicole.

much love.

2010-04-19T16:09:00.003+08:00

loves, only editing pictures let me feel the happiness.

From now onward, i need happiness, not sadness.

Please , understand me.

2010-04-16T06:16:00.002+08:00

I couldnt sleep.

I'm awake at 4 am .

I dont know who to talk to.

I dont know who to sms to.

I'm confuse when im back to my room.

Every where i go , i see him .

I so not used to it.

Tomorrow have two test.

And im here, crying, stoning.

I feel the pain.

I guess its suffering.

I'm totally stressed up.

I'm going to strew up my test too.

What am i suppose to do.

I'm so tired.

I'm so sleepy.

I want to sleep.

but, i can't.

Eyes opening wide.

sighh*

2010-03-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

Look at the bubble! (:

If you're not happy, look at it.

2010-03-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

Why is it so hard for me to be happy?

Tell me why?

Tell me something that makes me smile.

shopping is good.

2010-02-06T19:40:00.003+08:00

New year shopping!

3 shorts, 3 long pants, 2 heals, 2 sandal, 2 dress, others are tops and tubes.

I have no idea how many tops and tubes i bought. hahah

I want more! (:

2010-02-04T00:21:00.002+08:00

Everything goes back to normal.

Life is challenging.

I want to hang out with more people.

I felt useless and not enough of experience.

I've changed, grew up.

Just like the picture above.

ily

2010-02-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

Well, misunderstanding :(

Miss you El.

♥ Thanks for that call guys (:

2010-01-24T22:03:00.006+08:00

Sai kent and I, was the most wonderful day together with him and my friends, I'm glad that he can communicate with my friends! (: All my love to you baby! ♥

College have been great, i get to know each other more, getting closer (: We also went out to Souled-out to celebrated one of my friend, Tsu Sheng's 18th birthday ! (: I was a terrible day for him , because he had an upset tummy. Have to drink ENO on his birthday but he enjoyed , im sure! (: Can you see the green shirt guy in the centre, he is Tsu sheng, the birthday boy! (:

ENO replaced Beer!

Here goes the group picture of us during Tsu's birthday dinner! (: It was awesome and luckily sai kent was there for me when i was dizzy, after drinking one and the half pint. :( How sad, now i know where is my limit! hahah.

This guy here name , Wei Liang, a very kind guy but with a gangster look. At the very first time i met him, i thought he was those naughty naughty boy that is not going to study or whatever. i guess i was wrong. He encourage me to read up a storybook, so improve my english. Not like some other people, who only know how to look down on me! :( Dont worry , I'm reading the storybook that you asked to read.

Monday is my granny's birthday. My family and I went out for dinner at Bangsar shopping complex to celebrate her birthday. This year was the first and very first time that we celebrated her birthday , as my grandfather passed away . Therefore she couldn't have any celebration on her birthday and she doesnt like cakes! So my cousin , Melissa, she went to buy a jelly cake for her birthday :D It's so cute. My granny look so cute either! :D

my cousin, Melissa.

*She doesnt have a FACEBOOK*

The only picture of me kissing my granny's cheek.

♥

My Family and Granny's brother and sisters.

♥

Alright, today was actually a very boring day , because i was lazy to do my assignment, didnt go out to shop for goodies. So i decided to go for Golf with my brother and daddy. Those shoots was awful! :( Because i stopped playing for two years, but im sure i can train to be better! (: I miss playing golf tho. (:

Reached home, some of those EVIL LITTLE MONSTERS acted as JJ & IAN and Set me up! :D It was horrible. The story goes like this, Chu Er called me out of the sudden and tell me that Chia Woh broke up with her one month ago and falling for another girl which is Wai Yean. It was terrible when i know that Chia woh's another girl-friend is Wai Yean. Damn Surprise and SHOCK! So i went to call up so many of them, like, Nicole , Wai Yean, Chia Woh, Michelle Chin to clarify the problem. I can't tel the entire story here. I shall just summaries it. After so many calls and worries, finally the tell me the truth and GOTCHA me. :( I was actually tearing and had a heart attacked! :( Dont promise me you guys dont fool around that you both already broke up :( I'll be very sad and i dont know what to say, i'm bad in comforting other people! (:

I feel damn embarrassing When i know all the calls that i made were all turned on to loud speaker! :(

*P/s: When chu er said she was drunk, i was actually damn freak out and i have no idea what to do. I find all kinds of ways to get to her! I almost asked Sai kent to pick me up and went over the the pub to look for her! LOL

2010-01-19T22:13:00.003+08:00

It's fucking annoying living in this world.

Happy or Sad?

2010-01-15T21:18:00.004+08:00

It's me :(

I had fun with this few friends that in my gang. They are really funny, maybe different state of people have different sense of humor. LOL. I was really emo and i teared right after the english class. I dont understands her. I dont know what she wants. 'WHAT PURPOSE? WHAT PURPOSE?' : She said. ;( I have already told her my purpose of writing the incident, but she still ask the same thing. 'WHAT PURPOSE?' The evil face when she said the two words are freaking me out and i almost cried in the class. ;( So embarrassing. :( OMG. :( She's like monster to me! :(

I dont feel like blogging anymore lar. dont know why, but i have so much to tell you guys. Maybe because of my english, i worried that , there are lots of mistake makes me dont like blogging anymore. ;(

I'm going Desa Park City tomorrow with my college friends to do ASSIGNMENT. :D We're going to have so much FUN!

:D Pictures will post up soon! :D

2010-01-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

I have so much to talk about , but i'm just too depress, i don't feel like talking anymore. I dont like college life anymore. Lectures are just different from what i thought. ;(

Today is the worse day of college life, so far. ;(

What can i say?

2010-01-12T21:19:00.004+08:00

It's going to be a long pathway and to face different difficulties.

HA! The second day i can already feel a little pressure! hahahah Well, my first day of college, had breakfast with my daddy . He brought me to a little coffee shop for 'Chu Chiong Fun' hahaha. It's kinda spicy tho, because i'm sharing with my daddy, he ordered curry chu chiong fun. ;D I was lost when i reached Subang Square. I can't remember how to go to the classroom ;( But luckily i saw Samantha and Qi Hong there, but i went up with Samantha first. I was shock that i saw so many of students are talking, greeting around the corridor.

First day was ok, had to write two essays about movies and celebrities. After blogging i need to write about celebrities, i finished the movies one. (: I am really really regretted that i had A2 for my English, because the english class that i'm having now is with a bunch of ENGLISH EXPERTS. ;( I worried that i can't catch up. Those who know me, they know how weak is my grammars and vocabularies. seriously, im not being a pathetic or what. But seriously , english i need guidance. ;( I regretted for not reading storybooks and newspapers. ;(

I went pasar malam after my class , With Mr Zac, Joee, Qing Yang and Sai Kent. I enjoyed eating Laksa, and gossiping. (: Joee taught me a lot of stuff about college and uni life. After i hear from her, i somehow feel the stress is coming real soon , as i'm not good in presentation, i'm weak in english. what else? Stage fright? Hmmm. I need help.

Today , the second day of college was hectic, i have to run from 12 floor to TBS for my computer lesson. I was a little bit late with shaking hands. ;( And not much people i know over there only some girls and Yi Zhong. Michelle , Wai Yean and the guys went for lunch at Asia Cafe without me. So they had to come back to look for me while i was all alone there. Kinda sad today , can't really concentrate because im very sleepy and tired.

I've just created my blog for m y computer journal. I hope it's going to be fun. Oh, last but not least, i enjoy myself at the sociology class. (: Have to get back to my essays now.

;)

New Life, new friends, new beginning ♥

2010-01-10T20:09:00.005+08:00

I'm so sorry for the late updates. I'm pretty fine here, like, REALLY FINE! And happpy! hahaha. Fisrt of all, i think i will enjoy my college life, indeed i find it really fun , no more high school, when im in high school, just like i'm having a nightmare! Of course , not the beautiful memories. (: So, what happen during Orientation day? Was a total Fun that day , get to met know people from other country , new Friends in different state and age! :D

So far those friends that i know , their names starts with the letter J. Which is Joshua , Jonathan , Justin, Jillian, and me, Janice! heehe. So it's just soo Cool! haha. And if we find another 10 of them which the names starts with the letter J, we can form a Club. hahaha. Sound cool? LOL . Oh, Jillian and I noticed a korean guy ! He looks like a korean, but im not sure whether is he a korean. HAHA. but he looks HOT and CUTE!To me, he is Charming :D Big eyes, fair skin. Gosh, so perfect! haha. Haven't get to speak with him yet, but SOON! hahaha. Sai Kent knew about this too! hhahah.

The senior told us not to wear slippers or flip flop to college, so i bough a sandal, but i have no idea am i allow to wear that tho. haha, I bough a blouse too. Black in colour! :D I wonder how does the first day of college going to be. Are the lectures going to be really fierce? When i heard about this lecture , Ms Mary . They said she is fierce. I'm kinda scared right now. I will take more pictures with my college friends, therefore i can post it up here. (:

About Sai Kent, I find a total change on his attitude when he is with me, but very emotional sometimes. But he became a very understanding guy , he understands me and look good care of me more than i expected, which is a really big changes that i noticed. I'm glad and happy . :D I love him so much , because he understands me a lot. I think he is reading this. heheh. Loves!

Somehow i thinks that college is a new life for me. I can start everything all over again and have fun with my new friends. Speaking of new life, i'm lovin' it! ♥

A happy day that makes me smile whole day (:

2010-01-06T23:05:00.003+08:00

OH ! Today is a HAPPY DAY! hehehehehhehehhehehehehehehehhe. guess what? My mummy ask me about sai kent today. hehehe. GOSH! So happpy! i think slowly she will accept him . and im going out to meet him tomorrow. Tomorrow is my Orientation day , please do not make me look silly, ugly, and embarrassed :D need to wear neatly and fresh tomorrow, so i'm going to sleep now! :D

blog again tomorrow.

I'm so happy . Are you ? (: (: (: (:

If you're not, smile like me =)

nightsss :)

Just another better day (:

2010-01-06T11:42:00.003+08:00

Hello there! (: Went on facebook and saw Zi kuang's status he said, Sri KDU Prom is written on the newspaper this morning. I was shock actually haha. Prom has been over for so long , and now only they write in the newspaper. I reminded me of the memories of my classmates and friends. Especially staying over @ Eltjse's place with Boon yang. (:

I can feel my fat around my body , i really need to go gym! :( I wanted to go Taman Tun Park there for jogging every evening, but mummy dont let. I hafe no idea why. and i wont be alone, of course i wont jog alone, i can't jog alone! Since Eltjse left me! HAHA Anyway, yeah, i seriously need to do more exercise! :( Mummy say that im FAT also :(

List - to - do :)

*Still planning how to talk to my mummy about sai kent. HAHA.

*Need to shopping, but i'm broke!

*Need to make new friends on orientation day .

*Pasar malam

*Mentor gathering

*Exercise

When do i get to see him ?

2010-01-05T23:04:00.003+08:00

Opps. i didnt blog today . heheh. I feeling better today , mummy didnt scold me, we get to talk and joke like last time. I guess, she was just worry about me being a big girl already and starting a new life in college. I can understands that. But when am i going to go out with sai kent. I miss him terribly. :( I will blog again tomorrow. i need to sleep now. OH, im addicted to Cafe World in facebok . hehe :D

nights peepss.

not understanding at all.

2010-01-04T15:02:00.002+08:00

He dont understands me , parents dont understands me . who understands me now? I haven start my college life and im having all this problems. This year never going to be good for me. It's just like shit. and i hate to be part of the family. They totally dont know what i want. Stay at home? do what? I tired to talk to them , but they dont listen to me. What's the point telling them how i feel ? Other parents are way more understanding than them . i want to sleep now.

2010-01-03T22:39:00.002+08:00

你出现在我诗的每一页。

Let's go (:

2010-01-03T15:09:00.002+08:00

Hello today (: Wasn't that bad today. Woke up around 12pm, put on a mask after bathing. My face need come food and vitamins. HAHA :D I have no idea why , i keep viewing my blog. I'm like crazy in love with my blog! hahah. And I starting to play Playfish games in Facebook. It's kinda fun, but some are complicated, i dont really know how to play county story . LOL. I prefer Cafe world. It's so cute, makes me hungry too. hahah.

I need to clear my closet and rearrange all my accessories (: I like doing this! It's neat and tidy . Not like my brother's room, so untidy ! haha . Everyone is starting School tomorrow, my two brothers are not ready for school, still in holiday mood. hahah. Terrible! I wants to go back to school tomorrow, to visit Mr Zach , Mr Pang, and the others (: Miss high school.

I haven't been taking to my parents properly nowadays, after the incident when they scolded me and disallow me to get into relationship. One question, why when their daughter is trying to tell them the truth , they parents always disagree, disallow, and unhappy with our decision? why? So they prefer us to lie? or something? God, they never understands me. When im trying my best to tell them how i feel, they thought i'm scolding them? or "Talk back" ? They seriously need a doctor , a phycologist . I wonder when am i going to bring Sai Kent home. Because of this incident, they ground me . I'm not allow to go out anymore even farewell and birthday parties. This just SHIT!

Sorry cheau shin, i suppose to go out with you guys today , but because of my parents, i can't go . Maybe other days. (:

coutinue when i'm done. (:

A better day perhaps?

2010-01-02T02:30:00.006+08:00

Like my new blog template? (: I have to do this, otherwise i will die. Since my first day of the year 2010 so unlucky , So i'm making my next day a better day ! (: Was scolded by parents this morning , and i didnt talk to them at all after the arguments . I stay in my room and clean up my beautiful room (: Still kinda messy , but later you will see! (: Got to go now, it's 2.36am now. (:

Nights peeps.♥

A sad new year i had on 2010.

2010-01-01T13:48:00.002+08:00

This year is not my year, i will suffer.

On the !st of January, parents doesn't let me to be in a relationship.

The first day of new year, things like this happen.

How am i going to go on with my next day?

Happy New Year

2009-12-31T00:26:00.008+08:00

HAPPPY NEW YEAR!

And Happy Birthday to people who born on 31st of December

Eltjse May Woo left us today, Sai Kent and I went Airport to see her (: Min Hui, Abigial and Sandra Came too. (: We all miss Eltjse , that Fei Poh! hehehe. So evil of me! :D Min Hui and I wanted to pack ourself into the luggage and send us to UK to accompany El. HAHAHAHA. (: On the way to KLIA, I took a Picture of Sunrise , Nice? I love this picture so much. (:

Yi Tang's Farewell was FUN! Everyone are gorgeous. (: After SPM, Everyone dye their hair, Make-up, dress up so nicely. (: Will miss you too Yi Tang! :D We shall meet again @ Chooi Ying's place! hehe ;)

I made this Photo Frame for Eltjse :) Min Hui and Boon Yang suppose to do this together with me, but we didnt have time , So i do for them . Beautiful? hehehe, i found it FUNNY! Look at Eltjse at the top left corner! hehehe. So CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

12.41am

2009-12-29T00:38:00.003+08:00

12.41 A.M. now, I need to get cut some pictures (:

Miss you

2009-12-28T23:08:00.004+08:00

I have been watching movies for my DECEMBER BREAK. hehehe. So relax! :) I had Christmas dinner with my family on Christmas eve @ Elcerdo , KL. It's all pork and it's Delicious ! heheheh.

Eltjse May Woo is leaving on the 30th December. Although i dont know her well that long, but still I'll miss you like crazy you GRANNY! :D Please on your skype , MSN, PING, or whatever so that we can CHAT , GOSSIP! ;D Call Min Hui along! hahah. Will go Airport with you ! :P

I'm kinda missing High School now, missing the fun , the teachers, students, nonsense, jokes, BOOKS! hahahah. Honestly, i hate studying, but when it comes to long term holiday i definitely miss High school.

Shit, long time didn't blog, i don't have the feeling of blogging already ;(

Big mistake

2009-12-26T02:15:00.004+08:00

Yes, i do.

It's Christmas, but the year of 2009 doesn't seems that happy for me and friends around me. I feel guilty, hurt, never expected things goes so wrong . I can't forgive myself, and i should be punished with pain. I know how much you loved me, but i didn't appreciate it. It's all my fault and careless.

The group of friends have magics. (:

2009-12-21T11:26:00.003+08:00

It's the day , He came back. I misses him so muchh. Can't wait to see him, but i can only see him after Christmas. ;( Seriously December , Everyone is busy going out, spend time with the family and friends. My December is very pack, i have no idea how to move around the gathering and parties. Why can;t December have 32 days, or 40 days? Hahaha.

I suppose to go for Cong's Birthday party @ Full House, Sunway. But, I have family dinner , so i couldn't attend her party. Sorry Cong (: Later in the after i'm going to dye my hair. I have to think what colour suits me now. I plan to dye on brownish gold? HAHA i have no idea, i need my uncle to decide for me, he is a hairstylist .

Oh one more thing, I met few of my primary friends which they are so difficult to find! Gosh, We are all chatting in facebook now. Misses them so much, dont know how much they misses me. ;( Sarah and i plan to have a gathering on the 27th Dec @ pavilion i guess. Hope they can make it, i'm going to send the message to them now. Got to go, see ya (:

Great month

2009-12-19T10:09:00.003+08:00

El.yun.boon.

Hello my blog. Miss blogging, but i guess i will update my blog later. (: December is a very busy month . Family outing, Friend's , Christmas , New year, a lot more. So i dont know i have that much time to blog about all this. but i will post up some photos. (: I will post up photos bit by bit ok? ;D Sai kent is coming back tonight. Can't wait to webcam with him ! I miss him so much ! :D

Changed link.

2009-12-18T17:27:00.005+08:00

Just renew my link, it has been awhile that i blog.

I dont feel comfortable also. haha (: Well, I will start blogging already .

Will post up some pictures duringmy PROM (:

♥

will be back.

2009-09-14T20:03:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to my Precious!

always loving you!

♥

I wont be blogging againnn, AGAIN! Because there is only 65 more days to my SPM, 20 more days to my Trial 2. ;( I'll be back , and will visit my blog once awhile. Wish me luck. Need to study alreadyy! ;) loves.

Missing my beloved Grandfather (:

2009-09-06T23:52:00.008+08:00

Photos are rich with memories, all kinds of memories. Flipping through some album with my brothers just now (: We had fun looking through our olden days . So playful and talkative . (: I want to see my grandpa . He left us when i was doing my UPSR. I miss him and i miss those sweets that he buy me when fetching me home. It's Sugus, the Sweet's name (: I will remember how he scold me last time ; i still remember how he treat everyone of us. He smokes , there is one day he was buying lunch for me, i walked near to him , once he swings his hand , the cigarette hit on me. *ouuchh It's painful, i cried, i remember. HA! luckily there is no scar on my hand. :P Oh, my mummy just remind me something, my grandfather gave me Rm50 , it's the last thing he gave me before he left, and it's still on my drawer. I didn't use it (:

Many of the pictures are my younger brother. (:

I am going to put up some photos, enjoy! (:

3 years old birthday (:

Brother, Mel and me (:

Yen Yuan, Yen Hao, Ronny , and me (:

Grandfather's birthday

Granny, Yen hao, Grandfather, YenYuan , Yun xin (:

Granny's birthday ,

Mel , Me, Granny , Yen Hao, Grandfather.

Mummy, Yenhao,YenYuan, me @Thailand (:

Look at my youngest brother, how cute he is. (:

Look who's swimming! (:

YenYuan and mummy . (:

Yen Yuan.

Me, Ronny, Yenhao.

Ronny is my cousin, same age as me, but i'm older than him by 2 months plus. (:

My birthday! heheheh

Yenyuan having a hair cut! (:

Cousins, me and my brothers.

My two brothers. (:

Daddy , me , Yenyuan, Yenhao and mummy.

Grandfather's birthday , can't remember the year! ;(

beach!

Yenhao, me , yenyuan and cousin! (:

Yunxin and Ronny.

We both just like brother and sister! (:

will miss it

2009-09-05T23:04:00.005+08:00

In the morning, i woke up early because i slept on the floor last night, didnt want to sleep on my bed . No idea why am i doing that. hmm, sleeping on the floor tonight too (: must be having fun, dreams more while sleepin on the floor (: Went tuition @ Mentor, i dare not voice out about the Paramount medal's to mr Zac . I kept quiet and listen to his teaching. Normally i wasn't that quiet , i bet you wonder why am i silent today . (:

After tuition fetch Jessica Phoa home, before that we had lunch with my daddy (; Reach home get ready for another tuition, Ekon @ XinYi's house. She told me she is working in the Starbucks now. (: Yeah! can find her there already! Wonder Momoko still working there. hehe. After Ekons tuition, my parents and I went to Matta Fair. Talking about it , i still miss Taiwan's trip. All the other family members , they all are happy , took picture today and playing all the kids. I enjoy the trip. This year, right after my Prom, might be going to Japan. Mummy said she has never been there yet, so 90% chances that we're going there. On the last trip, there is this family having a cute little handsome kid. I saw him today at Matta Fair! (: He grow so much, almost can't recognize him ! hehehe So cutie. (:

I had fun taking all the papers there. Bought back two bags of papers and running through all of it. heehee. I told daddy to get me a better lens for my Camera. He said yeah, should get a lens before we go for vacation. weeeeeee, getting a better lens this year! (: I'm now thinking of the view of Japan. I wonder how many clothes will i wear. Just feeling to pack my stuff and go Japan now. HAHA! Arghhhh , need to study first. But I soooooooo lazyyyy ! Gosh, help me ! ;(

Posted some pictures that i tooked on Friday! (:

♥ 5Wordsworth

2009-09-04T23:26:00.003+08:00

The 5 Wordsworth '09

It's kinda special this year, our theme was Alice in the wonderland *modern style* (:

Everyone looks pretty, but expect the guys, they didnt smile in the picture.

We didnt had much time, thats why didnt get to take a lot of the photo.

Absentees are Nana , Yip Seong, Lee Rock, Yong Jun, Mr Mohan, Romeo.

It's a class photo, how can you all don't attend!

Excuse Nana, because she's not feeling well. (:

If today is not a rainy day,

perhaps we could capture more photos.

;)

Maybe after SPM.

*Anyway, wish all of you do well on trial 2 and score for SPM (:

♥

Falling Slowly

2009-09-03T11:21:00.004+08:00

I didn't go to school today, girls in my class are still in holidays. haha. (: I called Danish, and asked about the photoshoot for our class page. We'll be shooting on this Friday, after LUNCH. Theme , i dont know yet, i m still waiting for the girls to decide. (: It's going to be fun, and cool! (: My last year, i want everyone to be present and smile to the camera man! ;D Can't wait to have our class page done. hee hee.

I don't know you but I want you all them ore for that

Words fall through me and always fool me and I can't react

And games that never amount to more than they're meant

Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly eyes that know me and i can't go back

Moods that take me and erase me and I'm painted black

You have suffered enough and warred with yourself

It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly sing your melody

I'll sing along.

I like this song, Falling Slowly by Kris Allen .

Feeling a little awful

2009-09-02T17:00:00.003+08:00

I m lazy to blog, the reason will be , school's reopen, pressure surrounds me sooner or later , feeling weird when i m outdated. Don't you guys feel it too? I do. I hate to be an absentee in all outings, couldn't catch up and feeling left out. Not even outings I'm saying, Tuitions too. (:

I'm touching the Paramount stuff again. So irritating , and i made a mistake AGAIN. I have no idea what to do. Saying sorry is not enough, the person still feels annoyed. Passed everything to my junior to handle it, but i doesn't feel good. This week, saw all my babies working so hard for the photo section. I wanted to join them for cam whore. It seems weird, and the mood isn't there for me to join them. They're all having fun, I m happy to see that. (;

However, 11 more days to my precious birthday. Plan to give a surprise and hand make the present. As 'We' know, SPM is around two more months , Trial 2 is around three more weeks. Can't really do much this year. I'm still thinking , what i can buy for him as he always wanted me to buy him something. He felt unfair , because all the while he have been buying stuff for me, but i m not. hehe

The Wordsworth Reunion was a great , awesome and fun gathering. I love it so badly, gonna miss it. Pictures are taken by me and videos are taken by Dulcie. (: I'm lazy to post those pictures up, but probably ken will help me upload those pictures i guess. ;D

stop here, i m tired, going for a evening nap . Nights peeps (:

2009-08-26T11:50:00.003+08:00

Had breakfast with Sai kent just now. We ate 'Pan Mee' . hehehe. And guess what , we wore same brand of shirt! HAHA! ;D I'm home now, after 12pm im heading to a salun , to get my hair fix. Hope i wont look horrible later. HAHAA. After my hair cut, I'm going to Hao Chern's house with Rock . First time going to his house, i wonder how it looks like, going to take more picture. But then, i still miss going to Ken's house ;( hehehehe. Pictures will up later! Stay tuned!

♥ August Holidays

2009-08-25T21:41:00.004+08:00

I'm drinking coconut water now , (: (: (: I dont know where to start.
oh, im having ulcer on the tongue and went to the dentist today,
i wonder tomorrow's food i cant eat. HAHA
Lets enjoy my photos! ;D

im stealling (:

during commerce i think.
so pile ;(

look at them, three fellows are holding hands.

Look at The Sexy Benniita!

oh Trinaaaa (:

Marie blocked Min Wei! hahaha

she looks wild! HAHA*

Ms Nithia, she left our school last Friday!

will miss you! (:

Marieee!! , Ms Nithia and Min Wei ;D

This three girls here, always cam whoring using my camera! HAHA

Marie, Aainaa , Trina

credit to Rock!

Frean Frean, she is my 'BED' ;D ;D

Joyce and I.

She likes to cam whore! hmmm! Rock drew this for me.

I'm your sexy little Devil (:

yunxin was here.

on Garry's bag!

Two soh lou! (:

Garry and Min Wei

Sherrieeee! Dont finish it! grrr

Look what is garry doing. Ham Sap look! hahaha

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Spending my time with Tan Karl Xen before he left us.

Tan Ah Xen , you sure wont read my blog, dont want talk about you so much!

hehehehe .

miss you, do not smoke anymore, you're having sore throat!

Daph , Yun xin ♥ you.

Look , Look, she dont want show her face! ;(

Ah xen is writing down recipe , daphne and sai kent ka ka cau cau only. HAHA

Stupid,

can we take a better picture? LOL
She is damn thin already! this two brothers! (:

I love you thousand times!

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Merdeka Carnival, the only year that im not participating in it. hehehe *Funnn.

Stupid xen, eat your chicken lar!

He is laughing! ;D
Stephy and I hehehe

Yi Tang, i'm SO Tallll! hahah

Mr Zac. Me. Frean, Shanon

Mother in law (Vincent) , Father in law ( Wei Ru) , Husband ( Sai Kent) , Sister in law ( Momoko ) , Ah Xen ( Nobody) HAHA

YiLin and I (:

Eltjse and Benitaa, August birthday girl! (:

My brother and I, Do we look alike? HAHA

Fried your corn dog Mr Zac! HAHA

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Celebrating my cousin's 17th birthday, It's suppose to be on 3oth of August, but he came down from Johor early, so my family have to celebrate for him ealier (:

@Pavilion.

cutiiee, my cousin sister! (: 12 years older than her.

Daddy , Mummy.

Aunty , Venny and Unclee

Granny and Aunty

hey beautiful (; busy playing games.

Brother

Yen hao, me, Ronny, Yen Yuan, Venny.

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Searching for prom dress! Then go for tuition!

Kylynn and Yilin (:

This is Lee ER ER! hehee

Coconut! Tasty! HAHAHA

Look at her, so babyy! HAHAHA

HAHA

Hui Yan with coconut water! hhehe

Zi Yan! Drinking coconut too!

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Look, 5 person on *MY BED* hehehe. my brothers and cousins! hehehe

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Tan Karl Xen, have already left us

and coming back next year! ;(

he lost my cute pendrive! He gonna PAY FOR IT!

hehehehe

Chooi yingg! She is leaving tomorrow morning,

she said she wil call me before she left, i hope i can hear the call. hahaha.

i gonna miss you weih!

*oh, look at the picture, the first time she finished her food! *

HAHAHAHA! GOOD GIRL !

Take Care there, and remember to blog!

Add me in msn! hehehe. dont forget! :D

i LOVE you Chooi ying! ♥

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How Yen's Birthday during Madarin Class!

HAHAHA .

No candles for him to blow, so we drew a big candle on the whiteboard , and he blew it from there! HAHAHA

Cute huh, it was my Idea! ;D

Taaa-larrr (:

Smart little Yun xin (:

Look at us! During mandarin class! (:

H1N1

2009-08-20T16:58:00.003+08:00

Sri KDU Primary and Secondary school have already confirmed that there is 5 cases of H1N1. Therefore next Monday and Tuesday's extra classes had canceled! It's a good news , but bad news is i cant go out for all outing that i have planned earlier. ;( There is 2 gathering! 1st, outing with my ex-Wordsworth. 2nd, Outing with my current Wordsworth. It's sad , i don't know how to respond. Although next time we can plan another gathering, but for the ex-Wordsworth gathering is kinda important, as i have never been to Hao Chern's house before, this time i cant go , for sure he get angry . This morning only he said about all the gathering he planed , i always cant go. ;( Sorry, it's all because of H1N1 , i argued with my mummy some more. :( She locking up my laptop soon, and seldom come online anymore! ;( Of course, if have change, i'll sneak in to my mummy's room and get back my laptop. hehehe. ( I dont dare actually ) lol.

Bm seminal today was BORING, Yilin and I was playing with dont know what game, drawing, writing love letter to Yilin! hehehehe. shhh, dont tell Sai Kent! heheh. So boring! The teacher is not giving any of the tips , he is teaching us what our school teacher taught us. That's stupid! Yilin got high fever and body ache. Asked her go home she dont want, but at the end she went home! (: Get well soon dear! Hope my mum let us go out search for Prom dress. ;(

Tan Karl Xen is leaving, yesterday he came back to school , and telling everyone that , chooi ying is his wife, having 3 month baby, and getting marry at London! hahahha. i was like, 3 month baby , but chooi ying's stomach still so small! hahaha. Chooi ying is leaving on the 26th , Wednesday. I dont think i can go to the Airport to see her, same reason, h1n1 ;( Even Karl xen.

Holidays is suppose to relax and have fun, but the whole darn week having tuition! Everyday tuition , want die. Anyway, i gonna miss you Xen, and Chooi ying. Come back faster! and remember to blog, Chooi Ying! i want see something on your blog! hehehe . Take care of yourself there k? keep in touch in Facebook! hehe.

oh yeah! Any suggestion of what hair style that suits me? i want to straighten it and cut a little bit shorter. What do you guys think? Please give some idea!

i guess, i will blog again soon! (:

(:

2009-08-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to blog again! Trial just over! (: FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .

Guess guess guess , how's my mood today? hehehehehe. Wowww, thats super CRAZY! (: Really! Can't believe it, laugh out loud a lot today! Here goes today, damn emo in the morning, because i have a feeling that i will fail my ekon paper! I over slept, didnt really study , only know what Xinyi taught! Hopefully what i crab about are right! hahaha. So, went to school, my classmates are studying, i was like, NOOOO! dont study, because i didn't study! hahah That's really bad! haha. So i quickily take out my notes and text book, getting ready to study. Who knows, Joanna, Yong jun and i end up talking about CARTOON! HAHA . Cool okay! We were so crazy, thinking what are those cartoon character's name , and some we forgotten. End up thinking about the name , and stopped studying for ekons! hahah . (: COOL! , really COOL! hahaha. For example right, Bunny , we were singing the song! ' I love you, you love me, we are happy family! ' hahahaha. but i dont like Bunnny, i like Dexter , Tom and Jerry, Powerpuff girls! Hahahaa! Gosh, miss my childhood time! Wanna watch those cartoon again and having our milk in the baby bottle!

So, continue, my test, sucks, dont talk about it! hahaha . *Jump to another topic!* Karl Xen came with Yee Hern to fetch me home to get my clothes , prepare to go out with Chin Sai Kent! (: lovely one! ♥ When reaches One -U , i dont see Yi lin , Jia Jun, Han Pin, Wen yi , Kong Qian waving at me, sai and xen. But i didnt notice them, until yee hern told me! hahahah . Lunch time, Xen and Yee Hern both were damn silly and funny, i laugh so much, until i fainted! hahahaha . Really can't stop laughing! Damn FUNNY! (: Will miss the laughter when he leaves again! :(

Up coming, Shoopping time, Time to shop for my presents! hahahah (: Tan ah Xen owe me birthday present, so his birthday present is going to be ME , borrowing him my camera to capture some photos of temples for his assignment! hahahahh :D Went to Padini, brought a shirt, a ring, a hair-band. (: hehe. Later on, when he was searching for his Jacket, he went to Hang Ten, brought two jacket and Two Tee, Sai brought pink Tee, i brought Purple Tee! hahah. Tomorrow you guys going to see us in same brand Tee , but different in colour! hhaha Really funny today! Many more, we were coming out so many jokes and silly topics! : D

After Trial, still got tuition! Went to Perfection for Sejarah and Bm tuition! Intresting class too! Jokes! LAUGH! A girl name Jessica , she IS DAMN DAMN LAME! Likes to eat Milo chocolate bar! I brought the last piece today! So she couldnt buy ! hhaahah ! Another funny friend! Class was funny, friends are funny, Today is full with Joy! (:

If everyday is going to be like this, how wonderful my life will be , right peeps? (:

Tomorrow Whole day going to be not at home! Camwhore day ! hahaha Miss it, miss making up, dress up myself, prepare my camera for storing all the memories!

Pictures up tomorrow! Wait me! (:

2009-08-04T16:39:00.002+08:00

Everyone, dont talk to me in msn! There is a hacker! and i dont know who the hell is it! :(

2009-07-29T00:22:00.005+08:00

When things turn to dust, there will be no turning back .

When sun rises , with a mixture of orange and yellow sky makes a person feels a brand new day.
When sunset, it will bring along my sad memories to the dark night.
Hopefully there is miracle when rainbow oppears.
When it rains, mood, follows the raindrop,
It shows some flash backs when it rains.

Why cant sunlight makes a person feels better , only flowers.
why cant smile appear on a person's face when they're sad?
Nobody understand anybody.
Even somebody doesn't understands somebody.
Sometimes , answers are right in front of us, but we don't realise.
The only thing i can think of is to be all alone, bymyself.

There is no way that i can go back , U-turn.
I shall stick to my own feelings and my own facts!
Let the god decide, shall we? (:

What we had before,

will always be the best memories in my life.

2009-07-21T20:07:00.002+08:00

Will stop blogging for this few months i guess. If's anything, call me or leave me msg in the cbox.

If i cant control myself to blog, i will come back to blog! (: i love blogging, but somehow, im lazy and kinda sad when i come my blog :(

Wish you SPM students all GOOD LUCK, Do your BEST , And we shall party after SPM! (:

God bless us all!

♥

曾经拥有过的快乐及微笑

2009-07-17T01:07:00.002+08:00

怎么呢，

烦恼永远想和我在一起，

生活在我的脑海里？

永远都解决不了吗？

就知道我会带着闷闷不乐的心、

无论在哪里，

去哪里，

将的心情都永远随着我走。

感觉非常地难过和悲哀。

快乐能打败痛恨，悲伤，愤怒。

可是，对于我，根本就办不到。

我很努力的保持笑容，微笑，

其实很难，真的很辛苦。

就所谓的有只针叉了在心一样。

痛的很！

保持微笑？

还是不呢？

2009-07-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

我爱你，别离开。

不知道哪一天可以不想那么多，

不知道哪一天可以不为某些事情而哭泣。
真的很难控制自己的心情，想法和思念。

Thanks bitch!

2009-07-15T18:37:00.004+08:00

It's not suppose to end like this,
thats not suppose to be the ending!
It's all your fault, BITCH! Yess, It's you!
You know who you are,
why are you doing this to him? Why?
how many fucking complains you want to make?
how many fucking reason you can give?
why are you doing such thing?
if you think he doesnt teach, why cant you look for other teacher to help you! like me..
Although he was wrong, i blame him for not teaching me too.
But did i COMPLAIN to the school?? NOOOO!!
GOD, you're making me so damn pissed.
i feel like slapping you long time ago,
Are you trying to make the others to notice you?
I really dont know why are you making him so sakit hati.
When we were all sitting together, you were still laughing!
Whats your problem, he is in trouble, you're laughing ?
of course, It's you, Good student, the one who complains! right?
i know why your friends all hated you! i finally understands!
I'm the good person, who always trying to talk to you, communicated with you,
but you treat me like what huh? you treat me like a bitch, you BITCH!
I cant believe i actually make friends with you, i cant believe i actually talked to you before!
gosh, no way, you're out of my life. Do not border the Wordsworth anymore , BITCH!

Im so sorry , the whole class feel sorry.
;(

p/s: dont ask a single thing, you guys will know soon! Thanks.

A picnic @ Desa Park City

2009-07-11T22:42:00.003+08:00

catch cold, was pretty awesome today, two parties in a day, with different people. it was really fun and many stories and jokes. (: i miss blogging, but until if i understand how to describe my feelings. really, dont know how, i think i need momoko to help, as she is studying physiology, is it? LOL .

Pictures are all with Danish , Momoko, Chooi ying, Jasmine /Jaycee, and more~ (:

my feelings are so complicated, confuse, meaningless, unknown.

i feel how others feels in their life, but mine, i dont feel anything, even if i do, it's as i mention on top.

live it, learn it, love it.

2009-07-10T20:18:00.003+08:00

my lovely day was with a silly momoko sum. hahah. She came my house to teach me art and we talked so much. so many jokes and yeah, we had dinner together and was pretty cool. She is nice to talk to , pretty lame tho! hahah. Basically, nowadays my life in school , i dont know what to describe. Great? nahh. Sad? bit, Cry? nahh, cry for what? Annoying? Yes, a lots , hate it so much. Stress? a bit, getting better slowly and controling my emotions. So you guys can see my attitude have changed. i guess was way to much, friends around me, sai kent , family all noticed and sorry , if i would know how to control i will control, but at that moment i cant. however, i knew some of you do understands me, you will rather ask why am i like this than just scoled me. I didnt give a shit, even if i do, after bath, everything will wash away automatically. phewww, many things have kept in my heart for so long, no one to talk to, dont know how to express my feeling, is not about stress you know, is about everything. If i know how to express my feeling, i would like to share with you guys, what if i dont know how to express it? Of course, i rather to be quiet than talk so much until no one understands how i feel. So all of you know why now? i hope you guys done mistaken me anymore and please understands me before saying anything which hurts lots. i was alone , lonely and sad sitting in my room, cover with blankets and hugging my beloved bear and think, whether am i having mental problems. hahaha. i told moko this as she is studying all this stuff, yeah, so she laugh out loud , God , i didnt her reaction will be like this. hahah, Funny . Tomorrow is a good saturday, telling myself to laugh with joy , please dont bring any bad memories. (: loving to enjoy tomorrow, i dont think i will bring camera, as there will be other photographers. hahah (: Here you go guys, i updated my latest feelings. no hard feeling, just no one to talk to , only way to tell my beloved bloggie! ;) more things to talk about, but dont know where to start ! hehe

Education Fair

2009-06-21T20:56:00.003+08:00

hehehe, i suppose to upload the picturess, but im kinda lazyyy. hhehe. So today, i went Mid valley for the education fair. (; Withh, Michelle square, Chu er and Yi lin, Sai kent is to fetch me there, hehehe. so so, while walking to the education fair, sai and i saw Yee hern! ;D so funny, before i met him, i saw this like look just like him, then i said, nahh, is not yee hern. then who knows, 5 minutes later, we bang into yee hern! haha. and ITS REALLY HIM ;D so funny.. hehe. ;D pictures are with the michelle square! hahaha (: oh, not forgotten, Joee and Xin yi, while asking about Mass comm in the Taylor's booth, A male teacher name Winston explain to us whats Mass comm about . and he saw all four of us are from Sri Kdu, so he asked us whether we know Jooe and Xinyi ;D haha, i was like hhmmm, seems like both of them are quite outstanding huh! LOL . leave me a msg when you see this joee and xin yi! love ya! ;D

LIM HUEY WEI! (: (:

2009-06-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

holly the shit , i FORGOTTEN ABOUT LIM HUEY WEI's BLOG!! hahahha. Sorrrrrryyyyyy honn. That i have left out your name, know what? im touch after reading it. ahaha. *tears* Thank you so much , thanks for being my friend, thanks for advicing me, thanks for being there for me when im feeling down. (; cant wait to see you, faster come back!!! hahaha. But i dont think i can go out you know, maybe come school can pay me a visit k? hehehhe. I LOVE YOU BUDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~! (;

the way you act.

2009-06-18T15:03:00.002+08:00

What a joke, i heard of you from too many people. At first i don't believe that you really behave like this. But now, i finally understands why. Pretty sad for the others who always protect you and help you, but what you have done in the pass, i bet you will regret it. Really upset to heard about this and realized. I was totally an idiot when protecting your name and image. Shouldnt have do so. *sigh*

2009-06-18T09:27:00.002+08:00

My 17th birthday , someone dont even give a shit about it. I was waiting, waiting and waiting, but nothing that i can hear from you. i think the friendship between us, going to end soon, very soon. On my birthday, i can see many poeple are upset and happy. Those who are happy, im glad that you're happy, but those who're upset , im feeling sad. my birthday brings them sadness. ;( I'm not acting like i care about all of you, why is it, when i truly wants to care about my friends, im always the one who're ignored. nahh, maybe we can just be hi bye friends, but not close friends.

Thankss for some of the poeple who blog about me tho, Momoko, Qian, Zhy wei, Nicole, Freancyn. love you girls so much, when i read your blog, haha, i was laughing. because it's so cuteeeee! (: ilyy. < 3

in ict lab now, go home i will blog again.
i couldnt believe how terrible you treat me as a friend.

It was a special day.

2009-06-16T22:08:00.006+08:00

Alots of my babiess celebrate my birthday with a surprise! First thing, i recieve messages from many of you, i hope i can name all of you out, but you know who you are? ( ; Really thank you to all of you, spending your credits and energy just to wish me a happy birthday and i picked up some calls from few of you guyss! really touch tho (: well, let's name out, i'll try my best. hahaha.

Sai kent ( my dear , during holidays with surprise, mid night with a touching msg) , Chooi Ying (she msg me before she went UK. ) , Yi Lin (who wrote a lovely card while lying on the bed ), Ng Ching Yi ( my 7 year buddy, msg me and telling me so much touching memories, and he called ), Melissa ( my god sis, she used beautiful words to wish me hapy birthday ) , Freancyn ( msg me before she slept and before 12am) , April ( was shocking, and she is trying to be the first who msg me ) , Christine (the sweet one ) , Aainna (the sexxyy (: ) , Jessica PHOA (the one who ask me get married with sai kent, and happily ever after. plus, grow taller ) Emily (PTM member, woke up sai kent asking for my number and sent me a bday msg. ) many more, like, steph and pammie sent me msg in the morning when im still dreamming, sleeping. haha. , Chin wern, Joanna ( wish me happy brithday then ask me help her out for moral project. ) , oh, and not forgotten, Lim Huey Wei,( msg me late evening and wishes me in facebook, blog) , Shu hui ( Long distence call from London/UK. what a lovely senior ) , Keen yee, Steve hoh (my uncle , after wishing in msg then ask me not to lock the door, he is coming back. ) Celine (my junior,lovely child) , Joee (thought she is wishing me but not, she sent me a radiation wave msg) DADDY, he sent me a msg and said with love from daddy (; so sweet ) Keng loong (he knew my number!! ) , Mr Zac (didnt come school, owe me dinner ) , Victor ( my good buddy, luckily didnt forget my bday! haha ) , momoko ( msn me and ask me about my day) , Aimran ( emo boy, bring me laughter ) Ah kin (my cousin, ai ya bf in the family , TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY, but he still wished me (: ) , Foo haw ( my few years brother! but didnt meet before, almost forgotten about my birthday ) Sze Chuan (a playboy as he admit, counted as childhood friend! ) Mr Pang, ( who is a busy man, i thought he forgotten my birthday, but he still wished me at 11 pm today )

This are all i can list out tho, if i left out anyone, im so sorry k? doesnt mean i dont care and forgottena bout you, just too many of you (: above's babies wished me through phone and msn (:

come, there is more, heheeh.
Facebook, hahahah, not too surprise tho (:
i think you gusy go have a look in my profile, too many of them wished me, but some are funny, and some makes me think about the memories again. hehe . (: *bigg thankkiee for them* *hugs*

Now, about schoool , haiseh, look im pretty tired last night, cant really sleep, cause messages are coming, but not going out. hahaha. So i woke up, no one wish me. But two of them, Mei kee and Yen yin . Straight went to the hall for Assembly and met Yuin on the way to the hall, she wished me in mandarin! (: Then when i went in to the hall , Sophia wished me with a low voice as the assembly is going to start, hehehe, Thanks sophia! (: then, line up that time , Marie hugs me, the guys wished me happy birthday the girls too, few from other class! (: sweet . while walking back to class after assembly, i cant remember already, i think few of my buddies wished me. Then i went to the LOCKERR! GOSH, this is shocking , i saw everyone holding english book, so i went to get mine too, after open my locker, i saw Ling, ching yi, chu er, chia woh's presents are all place nicely in my locker. haha. Shiok weih! ;D after that, some are still blur, dont know when i s my birthday. hahah. they look so cute! hmm, then break time i guess, i suppose to accompany april, because joanna didnt come, but while walking to the cafeteria, i was pulled backwards and surrounded by the ex -3Wordsworth and some other darlings from other class. (: Many of them, some were talking to me, not finish talking other people pull me away. haha. im sorry if i didnt reply you when you were talking to me ya. Sorry, i cant really recall back what have happened today. haha. too many people, i can only keep saying thank you! (:

Today, is Mr Ravi's birthday too, (: do you know there is two more birthday girl/boy today, during break, i heard a gang sang birthday song! (: but i dont know who is it. While they are singing, i wonder why i didnt get any cake. Because i told Ling that i cant cut cakes and blow candle. (; sweet friend. Yeah, after break, my mood is getting worse, dont know why. feeling boring this year . So i message Sai Kent darling, he replied and started to comfort me. He is being so sweet tho. i love him so much, and no one can replace him. (: Lunch time, still emotional, bang up to Kar Mun, i told her is my bday today, and she is like liar. hahah. It's true, but she dont believes me. while lining up for payment , Ken Cheah Su Yang, the big ass belanja me lunch today! Aww ken, you're so kind. (: then, me and april are looking for place to sit down, so i heard someone is calling my name, and sounds like nicole tehh! hehe (: so i went up to her, and she ask me to sit with her. okay, so me and april sit together with them. While eating my meal, WOW, a bunch of girls came up to me, hug me and trying to molest me. hahaha. Nah, just joking, they are all wishing me and talking to me. they are, Wei Jean, Dulcie, Alyssa, Sherrie ... more. hehe. So they are actually trying to disturb me and not letting me to finish my meal. haha. So they keep pushing me to the left and bang ethal. haha. It's really funny, i dont know how to explain tho. hahaha. Then, A birthday cake pop up in front of me, Nicole, Zi kuang, Jessica,and few more other darlings carried out the cake and sang the birthday song, and im tearing ;*( During break i wonder why i didnt get any cake, but the other two birthday girls/boys are getting one. Then lunch time only i recieve one and it's from Nicole. (: So sweet. i love her, i love everyone of you too. You guys brighten up my way after lunch! (: Happy, smiles on my face all the way back to the class, Oh, forgotten to talk talk about YI TANG, he pretend to gave me present , so he steal my stuff and said here is your bday present! hahaha. stupid boy! :D

It's 12.01am now. and it's other people's birthday, and sure their friends will sent them message by this time. okay, cutting short my blabla, hehe. Went ou with Sai Kent, we thought the loyalty card from BBQ Plaza have stick 9 logo of BBQ Plaza's stickers then we will get a supreme set for free, but who knows, the worker there said, only if we had 10 stickers only we get a free supreme set. haha. So no choice, we are paying for this! (: Full, really full, then heading to Nose, buy sandal to replace my old one, which is hurting my foot! So Sai kent wants to pay for me. hahaha. then, let me tell you, when i reached him, guess what he said!! ? heheh, he said, babe, i think you give me back the sandal's moeny. cause buy shoe for girlfriend is really bad. The girl will run away for other guys, so give me back the money okay? i scare you run away for other guys. hahahhaah, i laugh out loud!! so silly, so sweet and cute. hahaha. Nowander i love him so much. (:

i think this is all, there is more to blog about, and no pictures doing the talking, no one has a camera to take down wonderful memories! (: Bit of dissapointed that some of my close friends didnt wish me and even forgottten about my bday. It's really sad to know, if you say, there are already so manby people wishing you still not enough, no i dont think it that way, i dont force you guys to wish me, they wish themself and what i mean is, those person in my mind didnt came to wish me, that really upset me tho.
Anyway, i want to thank everyone, for all wishes , presents, cakes, and so on. But not forget, live a healty life , and keep in touch with me ! (:

xoxo, yunxin.
nights, smiling in the dream!

Results as my presents.

2009-06-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

im suppose to blog, as i promised in my earlier post. but i dont think i have the mood to blog, thanks for my caring buddy, some makes me laugh like shit, some makes me realized something which is really important. i know if i tell you guys my problems? you guys will say the same thing, ' try harder next time.' , ' is not end of the world yet', 'dont be sad, try your best.' , you did your best'. something like this, this are all naturally coming out from our mouth sometimes when friends are facing such problems. my kor thought my title ' results as my presents ' sound good, but he guess wrongly. i also dont know what to answer. ;( my present! how come. i might kinda think to much, tho. No matter how much i put in effort, the results are the same, same as in no inprovement for those subjects that i aim for. everyone are so carrying, some are not! ish, no point talking to him/her. really thanks to my friends who bring me back my smiles and hopes. it's 11.23pm now. few more minutes to my birthday. Hope after 12am, a brand new day when i wakes up. This year, darling brought me a guess couple watch, it;s not cheap tho. im really touch. ;( as he is not feeling too well, he cant wait till 12am to with me happy birthday, so he wished me before he went for his nap. (: i miss him. i wish he is right beside me now, and let me lay on his arm. how warm is it!

me and him in maple! (:

my Guess watch! (:

His guess watch! (:

more coming up.. i think..

biiliibaalaa ;)

2009-06-14T01:30:00.003+08:00

will blog when school reopen, im kinda busy with buying my birthday present, i mean, my mom is going to buy me. ;D and also learning how to play maple, level 23 now, which is kinda fast. haha. only in a week, but still cant beat myy darling. hehe. will blog real soon ya (;

my Primary friends.

2009-06-06T15:46:00.003+08:00

i saw my primary teacher in kean wai's blog. i was totally shocked. i cant believe for so long i didnt visit her, and i manage to see her in wai's blog. i miss her so much, just like how i miss sai kent. She taught me manythings. she loves me, she miss the 5N'03 and 6N'04 i guess, i transfer school last time, im not from Chung Kwok since standard one. I went Chung Kwok since standard 5 , Feb i guess. Last time, all my friends ask me stay back and and watch them dance. the dancers are Desmond, Lee zan, Adrian chen, and Adrian ng. hehe. so cute the three of them, They're all good friends and they helped me a lots. ;) i miss them, i suppose to gather all of them during every holidays, but last year's holidays failed. Because, they have their own life now. some are busy working, some are busy with their friend's outting. but i really hope you guys wont forget me and the others. i can blog more about this, but im not feeling too well. (: i hope to blog again bout my primary friends. ;)

photos brings happiness and sadness

2009-06-05T15:38:00.002+08:00

im emo-ing the whole day. i guess i just miss my memories. didnt go out today, so i stuck at home, busy viewing all my photos. Some are funny, some are cute, some left behind unhappy memories, some are telling me, how memories come true again. I wasn't thinking anything, but memories. Pictures tell me the fact of human lifes. We can see things clearing in the picture. People might think, pictures are just pictures. it's taken down by a camera, but no one appreciated it. So do i . Until, today, i fliped all the pictures into up side down, only i realized, a pictures can tell me billions of words and images. thousands over of photos i took, told me too manythings today. and im once again, emo-ing. It's sudden, no one ask me to flips those pictures, if is not my pictures, i wont be emo-ing and argue with my love one . But im stubburn . So everythings is my fault. i know how to comfort other people when others are unhappy, but i cant comfort myself, and words that i told my friends, its not working on me. i have no idea how to explain my my feelings now. i have no idea.

2009-06-03T08:45:00.000+08:00

so tired, going out all the time, till night.

worse than having exam.

not enough sleep ;(

something that you need to know ;)

2009-06-02T19:50:00.004+08:00

It has been so long, i kept things in my heart and didnt even voice out a single word since the incident. After reading two beautiful & strong ladies's blog, Which is Cong and Daphne ;D I'm just like cong, what she had said in her post, was what im thinking too , at the beginning, not because gou lou always hang out with you, but , i thought he is like, first time having relationship , so i was like, er, be careful , think twice before you go in a relationship, as you know he was a play boy, he like to sweet talk. hehe, right? ;D So at the very very beginning, when i dont know you, i think like this, but slowly, those friday's you hang out with gou lou, and i , hang out with sai kent, so we met. (: and through the organizer, Cong and Qian, who organize all the birthday dinner, parties, and so on. i knew more about you. Do you remember i spoke to you once in Msn, and we were like argue-ing, because i told you something, maybe words that could hurt you. maybe it wasnt a right time for me to spoke to you that moment, as you know, im kinda 8 lar, i like to know more about others, not gossip, but just 8 about other people's life and stories. being a 8 is bad, because the more you know, the know words are coming out through the mouth right, maybe some are hurting , some are nice to hear. i dont know. after reading cong's blog, i dare to write this out to you , Daphne. i was worried that we will argue again, like last year, or this year, the msn that time. i wasn't being mean, that trying to hurt you, i was trying to help you. whatever i told you before is from bottom of my heart. After you told me, you called me because you treat me as your friend, and a real friend. i didnt know you really take me as a friend at first, after knowing, i was so touch, but too late we already argue. haha , and you were crying in the phone i was like why you crying, i didnt know it was you , until i heard you saying gou lou's name. i know you called me, was trying to get help from me, but i dont know what to do, i called gou lou lo. then he talked to me about it. i went home, i went online to chat with you, i was trying to tell you , changed your attitude right? maybe that sound kinda mean lar, you know im weak in english, i cant use any words to make it more... hmmm, not hurting? yeah. I dont know why, when im the one who always trying to help, and comfort them , and im the one who get scolded or even dont appriciate it. not you Daphne, is about other things. So i dare not tell you anything since the incident, how people talk about you, how people judge you. i kept quite. i didnt know you are so easily hurt . i dont know what to say this time, and i dont want to know, but im sorry about it. im scare we will argue again. i dont want anythings goes wrong tho, like , we gonna meet together soon, with joee. (; actually i cant wait to go out with you two. I'm really sorry that i think that way too, but if i dont appologize here, i guess one day i will still appologize to you. When the beginning, dont know who are you, dont know why you so gorgeous, started to get jealous and kinda dislike you. Cause jealous mar. plus, last time, i have many problems with sai. jealous the sweet time you hang out with gou lou. childish until asked sai , why are they so sweet and we cant. hahaha. okay, this was like long time ago. LOL. while dislike you, i always talk to you, i wanna know more about you, so that slowly i will change my mind, i even bitch about you in front of sai kent sometimes, hahaha. like, when i was talking to you, but you tak penduli me. so call that LAN CI lar. after chatting with you few times in msn, i told you about this right, and you said, you're always cool and look also cool. so i slowly bare with it. So sometimes i talked to you, you act so cool i mai dulan lo. so i complain all to sai kent. hahaha. then he say why you dont like her, but still talk to her. i said, i want know more friends, know more friends are better then having a anemy right ? but seriously, sorry for all those Bad attitude, gossip, and hurting words k? slowly, know more about you. and slowly i understands you. ;) im not trying to be pathetic or even follow what cong is doing, I'm just dont want any mistake between both of us. you know, i write it all out here, is better that i kept in my heart. i hope after you reads my blog, you dont get angry or even not friends anymore. please k? i dont want to have another anemy, as i already have one. (: Promise? i want all my friends as a angel than devil. ;D

love you, really dont want see you sad any any more. futher your studies, build up a healthy body , love you mummy (: look, we are all your friends, so dont mention about no friends in your life k? this is a really long post, specially for you , Daphne.

oh, cong, everytime i read your blog, you always mention about the others. always left out my name, Why??? ;( im not part of the gang? althought we never hang out all the time. but as i said, i dont want any anemy. So anything that you dont like about me, let me know okay? " Peng you zhi jian , yi ding yao tan bai". hahah. sorry lar, i cant type chinese in my laptop. hehehe. ohh, dont because of this small one, purposelly write a post about me k? hehehe. I'm not pathetic okay? ;D hope you found a beautiful prom dress k? try to go the shop that i told you in your cbox! (:

i misses all the memories. i dare not know what will happen the next day, i really hope memories will be my tomorrow.

Holidays ;D

2009-06-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

went Denise house for a pool party abd BBQ , to Surprice Abigail! (: It was fun, because it was my first time having pool party., some pictures need to get from pam, and some from rachel, i guess. i will be uploading mine soon, tonight i guess. im going school now, have extra classes, later on, going ou with Joanna and April, the two buddy that i never went out with since last year, even they are both same class as me! ;D sorry ya! Today lets have fun k? (:

loves,
yunxin.

♥

2009-05-29T23:29:00.003+08:00

i love him, he love me more than the human in the world. A wonderful present, a wonderful night, a unforgettable day . all my love to you, Sai Kent! ♥

Selfish.

2009-05-28T21:37:00.003+08:00

Eat my shit, do you know how much i wish to go out on the friday night, just because im going out with a guy , and only me and him, you dont allow!! What to worry about, we meet all the time, who come last time you let, we watched movie before, why this time you dont know. i was totally crazy because exam ends tomorrow and i can go out shopping, watch movie , dinner. two month i didnt shop, dont tell me you dont shop/. Why giving me stupid reason , you disargee our relationship voice out lar, but i wont change my mind, and i dont give up. i love him, what can you do. You're selfish, you only know how to protect me, but you know how to understand my feelings? you're awfully SELFISH! . I hate you, i dont know what is wrong with going out with him as i always go out with. i hate you! If you dont want me to ask you fetch, LET ME TAKE MY DRIVING TEST! WHATs THE FUCKING PROBLEM. :( i want to go out....

smokers around the world / Math test tomorrow, need an A for it!

2009-05-26T19:58:00.003+08:00

I'm at Mentor now, i seriously dont know how to continue my math. Although many people thinks math are easy, so no point study.BUT WAIT!!! easy as in if you practice a lot right?? I did do excersices, but i earsily for get the steps or formula! Thats the point , im suffering now.

People around me says im stupid. Weiwei and sai kent will always comfort me and say im not stupid. but i rather believe the majority. and i really have to admit I'm STUPID. Even my beloved teacher, he also said im stupid. maybe i take words really serious, even they are just fooling around. If you're saying im stupid just to motivates me from my lazyness, okay , maybe i really get motivated! but i really cant take it anymore. The more you guys says im stupid, the more i feel im stupid. you know?

Tomorrow is Daphne's birthday, i dont know whether she'll drop by my blog. but i hope she understands. Just read her blog. Although im Gerald's or Kok's friend, doesnt mean you're not my friend. i thought i can celebrate your bday for you, since you say no friends will celebrate for you, i feel sad to know. Why? cause i treat you as my friend but not my friend's ex. But if you dont understand, it's okay lar. I understands your stituation now. anyway, Happy birthday girl! Wish you luck in your chems and stay happy! <3>

im waiting for mummy to come fetch me know, she is not here yet! :(
during tuition just now, i went down to buy some cream puff. yummy, my favorites! heheh. on my way going back to Mentor, three malay guys/students are smoking on the stairs , and they 're blocking my way!!! My god, the stairs are for people to walk not for you guys to sit there and smoke , plus, it's other people's tuition centre, cant you guys respact? when i go in to the class room, they actually asking who is smoking! So i said out loud! No, Mr pang didnt smoke, but three malay guys smoking on the stair when im walking back!! The smells are really terrible, my whole body smellss! So they said no lar, yunxin smokes. LOL . but is weird, i can tahan when xen , kok, kai woon they all smoke, but cant tahan the three malay guys smoke! hahhaha. luckily i bring along my Anna Sui perfume all the time. hahah.

Mummy, where are you? im having gastric here!! :*(

6.13am , awake!

2009-05-24T06:13:00.002+08:00

It's 6.13am now. and im awake? I wonder why am i awake middle of the night. So tired, but i woke up in sudden! :( Cant sleep now, after knowing sai kent has beat me in Restaurant city, i am now playing it , and trying to beat him now! Later 10am i need to go for science tuition, and after that math tuition! People said, Sunday is the holiday,most relax, no work. but me? Tuition, next month worse, 3 tuition in one day. :(

Eltjse's fever is getting worse, i really hope she will recover soon! She didnt go for tuition yesterday, and i just reciever her message saying that she cant come for today's too. :*( Eltjse, call me when you need the notes ya! (:

So, guess i need to try to sleep again. Nitghs! (:

Waiting for holidays.

2009-05-22T23:00:00.004+08:00

Today is sai kent and i 's 2 year and 7 months anniversary! hehe. although we dont celebrate, but we still appreciate our time and memories. :) Account test today, i totally screwed during the test. First time in my account test i had my document not telly. :( First , Very first time! :( i used to score 100% in document! :( Need to try more harder on trial . MUST! :D This is how i talk to myself normally! (: After school, went to Ikano power with mummy to had my lunch. Suppose to eat porridge because of my braces, but after looking through so many delicious dishes. cant wait to eat them. So i order other stuff than porridge. hehehe. I need to be EXTRA careful while eating! :D It's painful tho. Then, i wanted to shop some clothes, since 2 months + i didn't buy myself any of them. :( But, i wants to go home to have a sweet nap. So i decided to go home and shop after exam! heheh . :)

Tomorrow i have science tuition, and science test is on Tuesday. im scared. I want get an A in science. Unfortunately, i wasn't that well prepared. i bet all results are all up and down.

Monday - no test.
Tuesday - Science
Wednesday- Math & NCC.
Thursday - Econ & Mandarin paper1
Friday - Mandarin paper 2 and Art.

Basically, Next week, the whole week i have test! expect for Monday. All are important to me. And i target A's from there actually. But i dont think i manage to get any now. :(

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

3rd day of the exam

2009-05-20T12:23:00.003+08:00

Today is the 3rd day of the exam. I'm in school library now! (: Because i dont take Chemistry and Add Math! heheh Just finish doing my moral notes! And the stupid school block the Facebook web! Grrr. So stupid and lame! i have non idea what to blog, curently im not in a good mood. So lets do momoko's TAG! heheh

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?

forehead

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?

Tired, had a bad gastric pain.

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?

I cant remember, i think with Sai kent! :)

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?

Kinda, because i always feel tired!

5. Will you ever donate blood?

I would love to ! :)

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

Yeahh, not many, i dont take them as my best friend, but close friend! :)

7. Do you want someone to be dead?

Yesh, That old bitch!

8. What does your last text message say?

"I love you , take care muax" this msg is for Sai kent! heh

9. What are you thinking right now?
How to continue my studies, sleepy, want play Restaurant City, want on facebook!

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?

Yeah, probebly my love one.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?

11.30pm. hehe

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?

HAHAHA, im Wearing SRI KDU Uniform! From Sekolah SRI KDU! :P

13. Is someone on your mind right now?

hmm, no one.

14. Who was the last person who text you?
Chin Sai Kent

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...

1. Pamela

2. Denise

3. Michelle

4. Joey Lee

5. Joon Yang

6. Yu Chung

7. Hippo

8. Yi lin

9. Zi kuang

10. Stephanie Cheng

15. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?

Denise? With Andrew De Zuosa! HAHA *i think i spell your name wrongly! HA!

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

female

17. If no. 7 and and no. 1 get together, would it be a good?

Hippo has a Gf already. So,, nope!! :)

18. What is no. 1 studying about?

She is in art Stream (:

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?

1. Hi / bye whenever we see each other .

2. just now during break! (:

3. just now during break too. they were together just now!

4. Yesterday after school

5. Long time, he dont talk now! :(

6. i think was during open day!

7. long time agoo.

8. Just now during break!

9. i guess before exam

10. same as no.9!

20. Is no. 4 single?

i dont think so, but she say she is! :)

21. Say something about no. 2.

She is pretty and sweet! Happy girl! (:

22. What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?

Oh, no, they are good friend i think! hahha

23. Describe no. 9.

Zi kuang is a SMART Guy, and Math Freak! hehhe

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no. 7 fight?
Nahh, they dont know each other

25. Do you like 8?

She is my good friend! I like her! :D

Finallly, i have done with my TAg, now get my ass off the chair and continue with my Accounts exercise! :) Wish me luck peeps!

too freedom

2009-05-15T23:21:00.005+08:00

Monday is the beginning of the Mid- Year exams. i really hope i wont get any fails. I want to empty my brain, so that i can store more notes in my brain. From tomorrow onward, i will have plenty of tuitions. Probably right after my exams , keep myself in the tuition centre and be a good girl, study for the next exam! I'm scared. I didn't know mid year is so near, i thought i have another week for me to prepare! :( Dyying! *sigh*

Today is the Teacher's Day. The school gave them a big surprise which is gather every form of the students in the hall, and Ms Harriet actually called up a urgent meeting to gather the teachers in the function room! heheh. What a surprise, the FIRST teacher who came in was Mr PANG!! Wuuuuhuuuu~ (: He stood there , i guess he was shocked! HAHA! So funnny! The students actually perform manythings for the teachers. I saw some of the teachers are crying, like, Ms Nithia! :) I didnt know there will be a surprise, or else i will bring a long my baby camera! (: It's my last year in this school, i can't believe that the teacher's day event is actually a big surprise and it's part of my memory now! (:

Thanks to all the teachers who taught me before, and also teachers who didnt teach me before!

Really really thank you to all of you, without you, there wont be me. Sitting for my mid year, and coming soon's SPM :) I'll try my very best to get an 'A' or Pass! :) Seriously, thanks for not giving up, still continue to teach us new things. Although sometimes we are naughty, playful, no manners, but we still ♥ you , to all the TEACHERS! :)

*sigh* need to wake up early tomorrow and go for my tuition, please hold me. I'm worry that i'll give up .

Nights , Yunxin ♥

Titanium Super Dance Club

2009-05-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

I had fun tonight, i went Titanium Super Dance Club, and it's my first time going to a club. but i didnt get to drink. because didnt order! :( But i really do have fun. They all makes me cry :( hehe/ another thing makes me cry too, which is i lost my contact lens, it fall off when i was drawing my eye. It's costly! :( I dont know how to get it back. I wouldnt ask my parent to get me another one, because they are already upset when i told them it's missing. And its my second time missing it! :( Oh well, i shall just save my money in the piggie box, hopefully i can get the missing one as soon as posible :)

Oh, i didnt take picture today! I'm not the Photographer today, im the Super poser today! HAHA

Last week , i uploaded 300+ Photos of you guys, now, you guys should upload pictures for me, and TAG ME! (:

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Prom the Musical 2009

2009-05-06T00:59:00.004+08:00

i have just uploaded 200+ photos of Prom The Musical 2009 into facebook ! And it's about 6 albums! LOL . can you believe it, my mail box is going to "BOOM" soon! LOL . I did not expect that PTM's cast and choreographer leave some touching comments and they almost made me cried. I seriously miss them all, although i join in for a short period. They brings happiness to my memories. Another memory for me to keep in my heart! I really happy that you guys actually likes my photos! Really Thanks to Mr Zac, the director , and also all the members of the PTM for giving me the opportunity this time. I really appreciate it ! (: I hope to join you guys on Friday, unfortunately i can't. I try my very best to go ! (:

All my lovess to you guys! - Prom the Musical -

Speaks with me <3

2009-05-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

My SMILE came back! (:

Tonight ♥

2009-05-02T10:47:00.001+08:00

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

Need a smile on her face ♥

2009-05-01T00:38:00.005+08:00

I can't put a smile on my face. I wish you are here now ♥

Things turing up side down again.

There will be nobody around me.

And me, feeling lonely.

Wanna be alone for the month of May.

My tears just fall off silently every moment of the flashback.

There's nothing it can be done.

Leave me alone, i wont step in anymore.

You all shall just be happily always.

No worries, i'll be fine.

I'm just feeling a little bit upset.

Only a single smile is gone. ♥

dont tell me nonsens

2009-04-24T19:30:00.003+08:00

What a big deal? you do this to me, so you think i will actually find a way to harm you or fool you? Oh no! I'm not that silly. I have many more better things to do in my world.

_________________________________________________

I seriously want an Ipod touch.Last time, he told me want to buy one, and we share it. But Few months later, he refuse to buy one, i dont know why. == Just now, in the car, he asked me , whether i like i phone or and ipod touch. So i said, ipod touch, because Iphone's radiation is really high. Then he said, oh, lets save money and buy one. ! LOL . So funny. Recently, Sai Kent and i are having an awesome relationship! hhehe. Love him so much. (: i really hope it will be a surprise someday! hehehe.

So when im sad or even angry, normally is not about Sai Kent. Basically are all from school. Problems coming in and out are all regarding school's events or even studies. :( Arggg. Hate it.

Desserts ♥

2009-04-21T20:05:00.005+08:00

♥Perhaps this would make me smile (:

no.

2009-04-21T19:57:00.001+08:00

Are you saying sorry for the sick of saying it?

It doesn't make any sense

2009-04-21T16:32:00.006+08:00

What the fuck is your problem? what wind blow you here and started insulting people. I still dont know who the hell you are, you're not showing your name, which is making people damn annoying! You;re so unlucky to let me say such thing here . I'm in a terrible mood! *from here, im talking about other people, not you* Fuck you, what makes you think this actually makes sense. I've been being your friend for almost 3 or 4 years, i dont want it to end up like this, Why must you make me hate you? I dont like hating people, is really pain. I treat you like a good friend, you treat me like your gf? What fuck? Eh , please. What law?? i dont understand. what does law have to do with this whole conversation! you okay? or you're having fever actually. I've boy-friend already. HELLO? WAKE UP! i not like the rest of the girls. im not like them. they can me cool, funny, open minded, but Sorry, im not. I'm very sensitive, not so open minded. If you do that to me just for a few times, it's okay. Why must you do it so many times. At first, i was thinking, aiya, you're my friend, i wont voice out and scold you. That hurts. But just now, you did it, you make me voice out and scold you 99. Some more you say i started it. == You dont make any sense. what makes you think it's the same? when you just come so close to me. what i did was asking you here, just beside you and punch you. and you say that actually the same. what shit? I seriously dont want to hate you, but just now, you make me do so! I'm so disappointed . Why are you like this, you're not like that when i first know you. We used to laugh just joking around, but not like this. You changed. Everyone said you changed. If you read this, im actually still wanna be friend with you. I know you helped me a lots! But this doesnt mean you can do this to me. Im very serious, so dont make fun of me. But you have to promise me STOP DOING THOSE FUCKING ACTION! IM FUCKING SENSITIVE!

p/s imfeelingbadbloggingthisout,ihavenochoiceyoumakemewriteitoutivebeenkeepingthisinmyheartforverylongagosincethebeginingoftheyear.

Adorable day (:

2009-04-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

What a day, I listened 3 seminar in a day, and it's really meaningful, helpful and it's part of my knowladge, i learn something new (: I not in a mood to write down too many things, because i just came back from a dinner with my Canada Aunty. (: She is super duper adorable. She speaks well english and cantones. (: She's a happy granny, and has a happy family. She non stop telling me ,my cousin brother and my cousin brother's gf (: Goshh, wanna talk to her more! But i have test tomorrow. I really hope to see her soon, and wont leaving without saying anything! (:

Peeps! You guys want any pictures, please give me your pen drive/ hard disc and so so . So that i can copy and paste. I wont be uploading it , because it's too many . i will only upload it , when i free, or the picture is nice! (:

Friends are not forever!

2009-04-19T11:15:00.005+08:00

I dont know what to say. In my mind have LOTS of things/problems for me to think and solve. I realize too many thing yesterday. I even understand friends are all betrayer. I saw it, and it hurts. Friends to me are important, but i don't want to have any of the best or best friend forever. Friends are not forever to me! Maybe I'm wrong, some people do treat friends seriously. I also treat friends very serious.. But, they dont. So whats the point for me to help them? Laugh with them? World is like this, Live is like this. Why cant everyone just be the same, live happily with no arguments, live with a loving attitude? I cant believe i actually blog this, Im pretty sure people who read this blog, they will think is themselves. This post meant for two person. And the two will never read this blog. No worries, It wont be you!

hehe (:(:

2009-04-11T11:30:00.002+08:00

After David Archuleta came to our school, i not stop thinking about him. haha. Finally he can replace Jay chou . My room full of Jay chou's posters. Now i going to take it off and place David Archuleta's pictures on. :D:D:D I know, i know, i dont really like him at first, because he look like an uncle in the picture of those flyers. hahaha. Sorry to say lar. but real life are much more cuter!! (: (: I didnt get to buy the ticket, because i have class test! :( It's so lucky that he came to our school , and it's my last year! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ hehehehe.

Yesterday, i went to MJ to meet the SKINNY KOK! He just came back from Australia. hehe. He so thin already, but, luckily he buy me something! ROCK CANDY! heheh. but it's the same flavor, not the mix one. Still okay lar, It taste GOOD! heheh . wont sleep during exam already. (: When i saw Kok and Daphne, both of them are doing the same movement, guess what?? HAHAH They have an upset tummy. heheh Because of drinking coffee bean. hhaHAHA . Kok drank the most, Daphne still ok only. hehe. I guess Kok's birthday only i can see him again! hehhe . Anyway, get well soon k? (:

WOOOHOO~ Banana's Birthday!! hehehe. Yip Seong organize a gathering to celebrate Joanna's Birthday, They really thought i gonna FFK. But im going! see what a friend. I dont know what will happen next, will blog about it later, and with pictures! (:

Loveeeeeeeeee DA ! :D

DAVID ARCHULETA @SRI KDU ♥

2009-04-09T16:58:00.007+08:00

WE GOTCHA BY THE JJ AND EAN FROM HITZ.FM .

DAVID ARCHULETA @ SRI KDU !

♥

David Archuleta is so darm CUTE! I really dont know what to say, at first i dont know him, i dont even know he is the American Idol. hahah Gosh, i stand so near! right in front of the stage. Almost touch him, but he didnt put his hand out. So cute, i should have just touch his face. hahah. And say' You're so cute!!! ~' hahahah. I took quite lots of pictures . which is clear, but still i want the near wants! Do you know that Wai Yean's pictures are so much more clearer. :( i want hold his hand!! heheheh. Falling in love. hehehe. I should have support him earlier, i didnt know that he is so cute and awesome!! He look so much more cuter and handsome in real life, in picture, he look so old. ! haha. I WILL support him from now on. hahahah So weird lar! :P

i gonna upload some pictures now (:

people who have David's pictures, please send to me!!! hehe

Thank you!!

(:

2009-04-09T09:08:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling better now. Eh, please, although my stress is not as major as you guys have . but i still cant have it. I'm not trying to ask for pity. if you think im trying to ask for your pitiness , I'm Sorry, you're Darn Wrong!
Wei, you're such a good friend, i should know you earlier as in talk to you when we were in primary. haha. (: I need time to let go my things first. i promise you i try my best ok!! (:

im at ICT lab now, waiting for the David Archulete.

So annoying, why must i go . And not i dont want to go .

YOU GUYS RALLY DONT KNOW ME!

My laziness :*(

2009-04-08T18:06:00.004+08:00

I seriously can't take this anymore, It seems many things are not done yet, i havent finalize the finals date, i havent change the dessert date for the both Michelle, i havent do any of the revision, i havent finish my moral project( is almost done) , i havent pay Mr Zac tuition fees, i havent do so many things. i wanna sleep well, i cant! Tomorrow, the David Archulete is coming, And there will be no class, how? Of Course i gonna have fun, but how about the lesson? I just came back from Ms tai's centre, i found out that , EVERY SINGLE THING I LEARNED LAST YEAR ALL BEEN GIVEN BACK TO MS TAI! I dont know how to do Penyata Pendapatan at all. i forgotten all the format, and i used to get an A. :( I Cant even Catch up Form 5's syllabus. You can see me around the school laughing, joking, smiling, but not studying. Seriously. I'm playing all the time. or Gossips! :( I told Sai Kent just now, he was sleeping, but i didnt know, i called him straight when i reach home. And he ask me to study from now. Wei wei also ask me to study. everyone is asking me to study. but i just so lazy. I almost fail my BM, and i thought myself will fail it, end up i get 20/40 which is 50%. I PASSED! But im not even happy about it. I want to be alone i guess, it seems i know too much things, im doing too much of catch up with the Wordsworth. == And being a 8 poh, always gossips around. :( Im going tuition again. at 7pm later. Luckily my precious granny cooked bah ku teh for dinner, which is my favorite, at least my dinner makes me happy. Have to stay back for extra class for all subjects already :*(

Againn.

2009-04-07T20:02:00.004+08:00

Heyy, Actually suppose to be a not stressful day. but End up it is a stressful day . I wonder why. I'm trying so hard to just finish my work , but for sure there is some errors here and there. Error just bump into me ALL THE TIME! The Culinary Main course, Suppose to give out a short briefing Today, End up have to ask my junior to go class by class to let them know there is a short briefing. Which is double of the work. Next, Mummy dont let me go Loas, I know It's expensive, but it's charity. She said I'm stupid, I'm not smart enough, so cannot go. Stay at home study? WTH? Ok, fine, i admit im not that smart, enough with the looking down on me. Somemore, Why is everyone asking me to go out, see, not i dont want to go out. If i still go out, i cant go out forever already. == Plus is exam week, friends around me said class test i dont care. If i really dont care so what? My parent care. What can i do about it? PROBLEM OF GOING OUT ALSO PART OF MY PRESSURE?? Oh oh, pluss, I CANNOT STUDY AT ALL, i dont know why The Month of April seems like a honeymoon to me! i Dont feel like studying at all. I feel like dying. The person who i want them to support me, they didnt do so. You disappoint me. Why?? I dont know what to continue, but i'm really upset today. There is so much i can talk about today. But i feel like crying typing out all this.

BIG SORRY TO YOU! ):

2009-04-06T20:37:00.004+08:00

There is this guy or girl called nameless. i still have no idea who the heck is NAMELESS! Ishhhh, My guess was, either Xen, Kok, Kai Woon, Or Kean Wai, Canot be Sai kent or Gerald. because both of them cant come online. hehehe. Or OR OR Choon kit. hahaha. but i dont think is him lar, he wont be that silly to do such thing!! Keng Loong also , he for sure will write his name as ' Susu'. So, left vincent 's name! hahaha. Show yourself nameless!! :P

ok, come back to the main point. I picked up a Call this morning when i was getting ready to school. I wasn't shock, because i already knew what is it about before i picked up the call. But I'm obviously Worried . And I think I'm the murderer. HAHA. not that serious. but still.. I'm so sorry okay, i feel so bad now. I'll Shut My Mouth next time, i wont OPEN MY MOUTH BIG AND MENTION ANYTHING THAT RELATED TO YOU! OKAY??? REALLY SORRY! ):

And i curently STUCK in my STUDIES, Chu Er , And ling was like motivating me to study along with them, but still end up gossip!! (: Dont you think so? i think i have to go for a study group. Anyone want join me??? Please tell me you want to have a study group k!! Lovessss (:

You started to appreciated me.

2009-04-04T16:31:00.003+08:00

guess what, i dont feel like doing my moral project. I have no idea whyyyy am i stop touching my books or even my pen. Feeling lazy the whole week, i have been doing nothing expect for eat, sleep, sms sai kent :( phone bil increases , mummy scolded me so badly, she is about to lock up my phone. Had Science tuition today, Mr Zac also mention , after sai kent came back, i dont have heart to study anymore. And class test is on Monday. I think i gossip too much already, i have been listening so many of the gossips. Have to stop knowing too much of things from now on :(

Sai Kent is bored at home, he asked me to go out AGAIN! Which i just met him yesterday. He started to appreciated me, not like the old time. Last time, his friends are more important to him, but now, i ask him to go out with his friends, he dont want, he only wants to go out with me. I wonder why, when i dont allow him to go out, he go. when i allow him to go, he dont want. Silly boy. Love you so much, but you have to know I'm facing SPM this year, i cannot go out often you know? Hope you understands me. love you baby.

got to go for tuition now. will be back (:

Eltjse's iPhone , funnn . :)

2009-04-04T13:26:00.002+08:00

Yooooooo. I'm blogging through eljtse's iPhone. So fun. Hehe. Love her iPhone hehe ...... Weeeeeeeee.

fuck it.

2009-04-02T22:14:00.004+08:00

Oh, Fuck it!

It happen again!

Again.

*sob*

collecting back the memories (:

2009-04-02T17:27:00.006+08:00

look at this beautiful picture! hehe (:

I'm the President of the Photography. lol. I would love to be, but i think my friend are more suitable. because im just a basic learner. I'm not like them, knowing so much about photos and cameras. (: Anyway, i'll still try my best to be a President! haha.

I went for CCA today, and i found out that , is really interesting, since i dont really know much about photography, so i'll take this opportunity to learn more! hehehe. love my photos actually, every photos that captured are memories :D Now i know why we must appreciate every moment that comes. Very meaningful, if we really appreciate it, or else we'll regret forever! Get it? heehhe.

Falling in love with the song that Tang Tang played today. All the best man. he is participating Solo instrument - Piano. hehe. He seems so nervous. Didnt get to wish him :( Sorry my dear friend! (:

I took many funny pictures today. hehe. i hope i can upload it, If i have the time i'll upload. Example, cutting Debra's and Han Pin's nose, Cutting Ling's burger! hahaha. And moree. :D

Ohh, currently, visited many of my friend's blog. Seems the few of them are having choosing what courses and choosing which collage to study. Actually, clear your mind, and think it for your future. Other unnecessary things, dont even border about it! Feel free, check out some magazine or many go for a carrier talk. I think that might help out! (:

Finally, i'm still not done with my Moral project! I need more Karangan! I dont really want to copy only one person's work! hahaha. Sorry to say. because all the karangan i found, all cannot be use! :(

Misssinggggggggggg him! (:

2009-04-02T09:40:00.000+08:00

I'm in ict lab now. on the way to the lab! Mr Zachary Wong Ket Lut, Fool me , with Mr's Chan name! GOSH! So so so so so so so LAME! i HATE HIM!! GRRR. i should take a picture of his FACE , with the EVIL SMILE! :) So bad lar. yerrrrrrrr, but yi lin and i manage to fool him yesterday too! hhaha

Full of Memories

2009-03-31T20:29:00.004+08:00

Full of memories now. I go through so many of the pictures on Sunday, while doing my moral project! We play, we laugh, we cry, we joke, we fight, We Had FUN!! (: I can feel them coming back, either they read m y blog or someone told them about me, i dont know. I can feel them coming back, starting to talk and laugh. Just like the year before! (: So happy. heheh.

Sai Kent came back from Kuantan. On that day, i called him and told him , It's Gou Lou's birthday, and i nearly forget. hehe. Sorry ! So we decided to go out and celebrate for him like last year. unfortunately , we didnt buy any cake for him this year, and there is no surprise, sorry. (: Next year k? I want DURIAN CAKE THIS YEAR! hehe. Remember what you promise me last year? hehe. Love it! :D yumm` He came to meet us at Full house, Niu Che Sui at Ara Damansara. He was LATE! And i got scolded that night! :(

Next day, Which is yesterday. hehehe. I'm cooking! :) The process of the entire thing was FUN! and scared. hahah. And Mr Zac made me *LAUGH OUT LOUD* :P So funny, the way he commented on my dish! haha. Yee Hern fetched me back after the prelims. He was saying our sotong helps us a lot in getting marks. I was shocked, because the only thing we dont care was the sotong, we thought the most uneatable dish was the sotong! hahah ok, so i rushed home to finish up my Moral! :( So tiring, i do until half way, cant continue anymore, i went on bed message baby then i sleep! heheeh.

And today, just a normal day . Nothing much, some jokes between April and Joanna. They laughed all the time, so do i . haha. I got to get back to my work now! Tomorrow have presentation - BM oral test! :( Wish me luck!

No hard feelings (: The Wordsworth .

2009-03-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

Everything i written down there was just a feeling from my heart. No hard feelings. I just dont want to kept in the heart anymore, so i choose to write it out open. If you guys thinks that i really hurt you, I'm sorry, but i dont mean it. All i want is , you guys just dont forgot about the Wordsworth. (: can? love you guys always. :D

When this happen.

2009-03-28T14:26:00.007+08:00

what a day yesterday, it's a tough time for me to face that kind of situation. I have no idea why do i think like this, but i already make up my mind. Know what, my daddy's youngest brother is a hotel manage. He came to my house today and prayed. because is qing ming today! (: He told me so many things regarding mass communication. After hearing so many stuff, some bad some good, they make me fear of the job now. i must think whether i could do it a not. And i also have to changed my attitude. Now i have understands why Mr Zac will get angry. Because i didnt do what he wants, i do what i want. If compare Mr Zac with outside , they wont pity me , they wont care what are we facing. We just have to get our job done and they pay us, we must always follow the orders. Although mr Zac is not paying me, but it's still my job, the pressure is there, but if im outside, more pressure is given. I hope i could manage man.

Yesterday, Culinary prelims was fine, but my junior, Kevin, he let a pot of cooking oil pour on his leg. I feel so sorry, i dont know whether his mother will scold a not. Grrr. I dont know how to continue, i just have to say, im sorry :) get well soon (:

After my culinary, I was in a bad mood, Mummy brought me to Sunway Pyramid to get my laptop fix. Few years already i didn't shop at Sunway Pyramid. Last time when i was young, every weekends i'll go there for my dinner. I missed it (: Mummy told me there is this free make up and photo shooting. So i went to have a try. (: It's so fun. Look so pretty, hehe. mummy and i went for the photo shooting, i look damn weird, i think is because of the clothes i wore yesterday. Makes me look so horrible! haha. but the picture of me and mummy is beautiful! hehe. (: I had fun, and i forgotten about my pressure! hehe . After that, i went for my Bm tuition with a heavy make up! haha. Weird huh, but i dont care! :P

Ohh, Happy Birthday to Ky-lynn. I saw the Dickens preparing the cake and the present for Ky-lynn. and makes me thought of the Wordsworth. Well , i seriously miss the Wordsworth. I'm in Wordsworth for 5 years plus this year too. I can't believe that im actually thinking of all this. What i saw was, Dickens, majority of the Wordsworth are there, and why they didnt Celebrate birthday with The Wordsworth before. Ok, got lar, but only a few and, the guys are all lazy to care about the birthday. I feel so sad, you guys can say im jealous, not only me, the others who studying other class felt that too. Im not trying say you guys are bad friends, but im just writing out my feeling towards the Wordsworth. but no longer the Wordsworth heart now. i miss you guys even i can see you guys every weekdays.

will continue :)

Changing, is it?

2009-03-26T20:34:00.003+08:00

All i know now are still nightmares. I suppose to be happy, because i was told that I'm the president of the photography club. but, something just upset me 1 hour ago. It's a difficult choice for me, i don't think i even get to choose. I had to follow whatever is given. :( Is it so important to really follow the order? It's awful, it make me feel awful. I have no idea how to face them. I realized i really dreamt a nightmare. It's horrible, and unexpected, if i tell you, you'll shock! ha! i really shock when i was dreaming about it. I couldn't believe I'll dreamt such thing! You, don't border to know and ask too. hehh.

What's in my mind,

1) Moral Project

2) Art , the sketches.

3) Culinary stuff. (headache)

4) Editorial board

5) Tuition's, too many tuition.

6) Relationship

7) Class test 2

My brain is so gonna BOOM! :(

I know everyone having the same problem, not majority of my problems, Some.

People who can manage all this properly and nothing goes wrong, of course is good , i want that too. But i can't. i WISH i could. So stress out. i need to sleep, but i cant. I need to laugh. Or else i can't get my job done! :(

Wishing somebody , happy always and all the best to him and her. (:

A nightmare

2009-03-24T20:29:00.002+08:00

oh great. Teachers all gave me trouble all the time! They cant just let me study , because of them , i have to run up and down , run all over the school . JUST BECAUSE OF THEM! I have so many things on my mind which i have no idea how to solve it. Even i told my friends, so what. they cant help me. I plan to tell Sai Kent, but i dont know he can help either. I tried to release my stress on him, i didnt know it will end up like a nightmare. I know he is innocent , but i really thought he could accept it. I'm sorry for those words that hurt you. I really can't control my attitude, my feelings, my tears and myself. This slowly became a horror nightmare to me. slowly, I've no more confident in whatever im doing. It's all nightmare now. terible nightmare. :(

Weeeee :)

2009-03-22T12:42:00.002+08:00

heyy, I'm back! heeheh before i went penang, i went to Yip Seong's hse! hehe. Sherrie. Boon Yang, Yip Seong and i practising cooking for the culinary prelims. hehe. Rock suppose to come, but my mumm dont want fetch people! she had a bad mood that day! . So we get it started and we had lots of fun! :D Yip Seong's mum teach us how to cook. and incredible that Yip Seong can cook! hahaha. I was shocked! :P we took lots of pictures too. if i have time, i will post it up! :)

I suppose to do my homework when im at Penang. :( But im too lazy so didn't do any. i ate DURIAN! YUMMMMMMMM~ heehehhe. and I played PSP, the new game , name, DINER DASH! OMG! Its so damnn funn! hahah. i finish the whole game, finish all the levels! :P

That's all for today, got to go finish my stupid karangan first! if not Mr Mohan will upset! :P LOVES!

Learning to be independent!

2009-03-17T11:25:00.004+08:00

I'mme,ilovemyselft.Wanttobeindependentwhenyounotaround!Makemesickallthetime.Tryingsohardtotellyousomething,buthardlycantellyou.dissapointme.

Stillsmiling .wheni'm sad.